117 | lost and not found.

i've been thinking what i'm gonna write here.. cause my brain is now fully packed with problems. Yesterday was quite miserable when i just knew that i've lost my wallet in the afternoon. cuai banar. I really think i misplaced it somewhere when i was about to commit zuhor prayer at the mosque, maybe when i was obluting. After zuhor prayer, i've checked my pockets, the wallet wasn't inside, but i didn't notice that i brought my wallet along. I realised it when I woke up from sleep at 430 in the afternoon. Went straight to the airport at first, then straight to the mosque where i lost my wallet. I've searched it in every corner of the mosque as possible, been asking the people inside, but.. the wallet couldn't be found.. so sad man!! really.. depressed.. 0.0'' it truly saddings me.. i'm screwed..

then rushed to the airport to attend our farewell meet, aleef is heading for manchester and will be back next year.. i think he is on his flight now to Dubai to transit. i hope he's doing just fine.. so long bro.. heheh. i just spent about 10 minutes in the airport, broke my fasting there, then rushed to Gadong, where my friends, Ross and Mallyanah, were waiting for me to have our sungkai together. We're lacking communication as my line was out of credits. shit. i got there, Mister Pizza, when they had finished eating, while i had lost my appetite to eat, though i was extremely hungry in the afternoon.

I went to police station to make a police report reference with ross after sending malyanah home. We had been in the police station for quite long. I lost 5 important items, my IC and ATM cards. So five reports to be taken as references to the banks and the immigration centre. Along with the five items, i have lost my precious things like pictures. :(

We decided to come over alep's house cause ross had something to tell him. Instead of staying at his house, we decided to bring him along to have sahur at sempurna restaurant in Rimba. we stayed there till 1 plus in the morning.

they cheered me up. hehe

back at home at 145am.

been thinking positively...

109 | no idea.

i have been watching two dvds, before breaking the fast yesterday and after having sahur (meals that consumed by Muslims before fasting) today. The two dvds were about the past that is still living in the current life. Well that reminds me about my past though. Have i ever mentioned about my love life? ahaha. idts. What is love anyway? What does it bring? I'm not saying that I'm still living in the past, some question and even debated about the past, that what past brings? for me, some of it are meant to be forgotten, perhaps, it is the most painful thing to remember. Some of you might agree right? hmm..

what love did i have? huhu. i think all love is basically the same, at first, it was a wonderful thing that you ever had, but eventually when it ends, it will end in a such devastating way. (i didn't say all, oh did i?) But yet, i'm a quitter when it comes to love. huh? am i talking about love? love love love. hahaha. well, i'm not really prepared to welcome it again yet. I just remember how cruel it was to me, how complicated it was. it brings insanity when it drifted my life away to death? HAHAHA. screw me. ;p how can i be sure that it won't be happened again? am i being a coward? i don't know, what a spectacular bastard am i to repel the girl that i love the most or i start to fall into.. how long am i gonna stay single? till 101010? bhahahaha!! (jokes) not that i'm not over with the past.. but uh.. it's still unexplainable.. not that the love that i had is great.. but yeah, love is unforgettable.. isn't it? shit.

let the time tell how my next love is gonna be. To be honest, yes, i miss to be in the moment when love is the thing that revolves all around me. I miss to have a girl on my mind. Though there is. At times, it's blank, totally. confused? yes it is confusing.. ;S hahaa screw me againn..


enough said about the thing that is unavoidable.. ahaha. huh.. *sigh heavily. okay okay. i'm quite hungry now. ahaha. got an hour till sungkai. ;D yeah waiting for my sister arrival, checking what foods have they bought for sungkai. ahaha. :P i got loads of DVDs to watch.. ;p thanks leef for lending me the DVDs. haha. atleast i have learnt something from it ahha. I have just finished watching a DVD named the illusionist, what a great movie it was that has a great twist at the end. ^^, you should watch it though, Qis, it's worth that you pushed me to watch it in the first place though it was the forth. ahaha. :P okay. i think that's enough for an update.. :P

no offense.

bye. Assalamualaikum. (i think i should have started to use Salam instead of a Bye?)
;P happy fasting.

96 | frust MENONGGENG.

i SUCK. okay. thats all.