109 | no idea.

i have been watching two dvds, before breaking the fast yesterday and after having sahur (meals that consumed by Muslims before fasting) today. The two dvds were about the past that is still living in the current life. Well that reminds me about my past though. Have i ever mentioned about my love life? ahaha. idts. What is love anyway? What does it bring? I'm not saying that I'm still living in the past, some question and even debated about the past, that what past brings? for me, some of it are meant to be forgotten, perhaps, it is the most painful thing to remember. Some of you might agree right? hmm..

what love did i have? huhu. i think all love is basically the same, at first, it was a wonderful thing that you ever had, but eventually when it ends, it will end in a such devastating way. (i didn't say all, oh did i?) But yet, i'm a quitter when it comes to love. huh? am i talking about love? love love love. hahaha. well, i'm not really prepared to welcome it again yet. I just remember how cruel it was to me, how complicated it was. it brings insanity when it drifted my life away to death? HAHAHA. screw me. ;p how can i be sure that it won't be happened again? am i being a coward? i don't know, what a spectacular bastard am i to repel the girl that i love the most or i start to fall into.. how long am i gonna stay single? till 101010? bhahahaha!! (jokes) not that i'm not over with the past.. but uh.. it's still unexplainable.. not that the love that i had is great.. but yeah, love is unforgettable.. isn't it? shit.

let the time tell how my next love is gonna be. To be honest, yes, i miss to be in the moment when love is the thing that revolves all around me. I miss to have a girl on my mind. Though there is. At times, it's blank, totally. confused? yes it is confusing.. ;S hahaa screw me againn..


enough said about the thing that is unavoidable.. ahaha. huh.. *sigh heavily. okay okay. i'm quite hungry now. ahaha. got an hour till sungkai. ;D yeah waiting for my sister arrival, checking what foods have they bought for sungkai. ahaha. :P i got loads of DVDs to watch.. ;p thanks leef for lending me the DVDs. haha. atleast i have learnt something from it ahha. I have just finished watching a DVD named the illusionist, what a great movie it was that has a great twist at the end. ^^, you should watch it though, Qis, it's worth that you pushed me to watch it in the first place though it was the forth. ahaha. :P okay. i think that's enough for an update.. :P

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bye. Assalamualaikum. (i think i should have started to use Salam instead of a Bye?)
;P happy fasting.

104 | will see.

i think, i would like to challenge myself to not sign in any email of mine for awhile, will see how long i can take. ahaha. since my friend, closed friend can get rid of going online when she got herself extremely addicted to it. She? if she can do it, i also can do. ;D i took the challenge. ;D anyway.. in this way, i can do something that is more important instead. giving my concentration to another commitment. study? hmm.. ^^, ahaha.. will see. or perhaps, i'll turn my life as what a pig does have. ahaha. eat. sleep. shitting. blaa. ahaha. if so, i'll surrender. ahaha. i don't know whether this is a good idea or not. hehe.. but i'm not gonna leave from blogging. cause i have to do lots of writings.. ahaha.. will see.




Use the other substitute to contact me haha if it's really important. HAHA. barigali aku ah..


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